I don't wanna

This is my attitude of late.

Apply for summer internships... I don't wanna.
Read for class... I don't wanna.
Prepare for oral arguments... I don't wanna.

Sounds winey this I know, but none-the-less it is how I feel at this moment. I'm tired. I want a LONG vacation. With no family drama, just me my boyfriend and my puppies. Yup that would be good.

I have been being productive, but school is all I'm doing right now... its crazy. I did have a great weekend with a nice break, but then Sunday I spent the entire day cranking out homework and getting ready for the week.

I shall make it through this week. Even if I'd don't wanna.

Real Life

9 Months Ago-- my little brother dropped out of college

In less than 9 Months-- he is going to be a dad. 

9 Months ago-- I was preparing to graduate college

In 9 months I will still be a law student. 

Look at your life, look at the changes that can occur in 9 months. 

I'm happy for my brother and terrified for him all at the same time. Mostly I know he isn't ready. He's just a kid. He cannot even keep a job yet. 

I hope and pray he finds work, and KEEPS it. That the baby is healthy. That his girlfriend and he continue to have a loving relationship. 

Advice? Stay in school. I'm not ready to be a mom yet. and I'm thankful I don't have to make those decisions yet. 

ps family drama makes law school a nice escape... a place to dive into, to try to understand why we have a bill of rights. but a scary place as well... especially when you are reading a bunch of cases about people beating babies, and neglecting them... not that my brother will do that... but it is just creepy that there are people in the world who do that... bagh heebie jeebies. 

1L Second Semester

One week of the second semester has been completed. School is school I guess. This semester is promising to be more intense than last semester; which is something I am not looking forward to. But alas, I am OVER half-way done with my 1L year, which I feel is pretty awesome.

I have also applied for a blogging scholarship. One of my classmates read my blog, said how true and honest it was, that she felt the same way at times with her experiences as a 1L, so she told me I should apply for some scholarships. So I did that, which is exciting. I doubt I'll get anything, but its worth a shot.

I was looking back over old posts, and some things deserve an update. Mainly Legal Writing. You will be happy to know that I got an A-! How exciting is that? I was hoping for a B, and did even better!

New Apartment- I moved into a new apartment. I love it. Its a 2 bedroom on the other side of town. I cannot hear my neighbors, which is so enjoyable. I also no longer live in the "party" part of town. Which is so very happy. I have an office, a bedroom, a kitchen, a living area, and a bathroom! I went from a studio to all of that! Wooowhooo. Only real problem is that my shower randomly scalds me. Which sucks.

Criminal Law- really intense. I like the professor. She is going to take us to Statesville. I'm pretty excited.

Contracts- Parol Evidence.

Civil Procedure- Petitions. People getting run down on Normal Road.

Constitutional Law- I love the Professor. He is awesome. The class is kind of like my history classes from Ripon College. I'm enjoying it.

Basic Legal Research- Workshop done, quiz to do this week.

Legal Writing- Oral argument, motion and memorandum are due on the 28th. Not looking forward to that. Our case is basically IL's version of Attractive Nuisance.

MLK Holiday- no school. How happy is that?

So now it is time to do some more homework. And perhaps watch Legally Blonde- its on TV. hmmm

Back to School

Grades. I did fairly well. I had a B average, C+ in Civil pro as the low, A- in legal writing as the high.

So its back to school... I'm in my third day... I'm tired. Exhausted is more the word. Its annoying. I hit the ground running, and haven't stopped yet. And my back hurts. I've been using a wheeley bag up to now, but there is snow on the ground so I'm carrying my bag--- its heavy. LIKE REALLY HEAVY.

So classes this semester...
Contracts: Right now we are doing Parol Evidence... it is confusing... but doable.
Constitutional Law: Interesting, the professor is kind of scatter brained... but I think I'm going to enjoy the class.
Criminal Law: The professor is a retired feminist, who loves the bloody crimes. She is going to be interesting. She assigns a TON of reading though, which is unfortunate.
Civil Procedure: ya. So not fun. More nightmares about Santa Clause. Its so hard to learn. We had 40 pages of reading for the first class today. Pleadings... I mean its ok to read and I hope to learn from reading this semester so that I can do a little better on the final this spring. He said it is more on the rules this semester, which is what the upperclassmen have stated as well.
Basic Legal Research: We have already had one fairly long workshop, which was intense.
Legal Writing: We have a motion and memorandum and oral argument due before January is done. Oh so much fun.

New Apartment. It is going well. I love it. The only downside is that my shower seems to scald me randomly... which is unfortunate.

Well it is off to Civ Pro... oh joy

Break

Its break time. Life is a little crazy. Stressful. But relaxing at the same time. I've found I cannot slow down, my brain is always going a million miles an hour. I want to do things, get stuff done, be productive. But what is there to do? Not a lot. I am applying for the IL bar, which is quite a task.

Ordered books for next semester. Going to start reading on Monday. Will be fun.

Got my first grade back. Civil Procedure. Just above Average... C+ So I'm going with it. Kind of indifferent. I'd hoped I would do better. But honestly I'm relieved I passed at least one of my classes. The other grades aren't up yet. So I'll have to wait to see.

Time to get back to doing the IL bar stuff I guess.

Here is hoping the rest of my grades are above average. :)

Finals, 5 Down 1 to Go

Finals. F*%k I never actually learned this $h*t.

But I did, for the most part. I know what is going on. Yes I review and study, and spend hours memorizing flash cards, but I know a lot of what is going on. I actually have some sort of a clue. Most of the time. I've finished each exam early, which is either a sign I know what is going on, or a sign I'm clueless, I'll find out in January.

Its crazy. So much stuff to study, so many things to learn. Torts is all that I have left. I have about NO motivation left to study. And it is closed book, Multiple Choice, Short Answer, and Essay. Egh. But it should be okay. Test isn't until Wednesday, I know most of the flash cards, it is just remembering all the steps to the Negligence claims.

Basic Legal Research- difficult, but went ok. I think I nailed it.

Legal Writing- Time crunch, crazy hard, never dreamt a test could put so much info into one exam. It was a good precursor to the big four exams.

Property- went well. Essay and multiple choice and short answer. Got done early, and did not exceed the word limit... I wonder about it, I felt good when it was done though.

Contracts- made me feel like I got punched in the stomach. Got done early, figured I couldn't think of anything else. I hope I made all the needed arguments. The test was intense. 3 Essay Questions.

Civil Pro- made we want to cry. 100 multiple choice questions. About 1/4 of the way through I wanted to be done. It was so difficult. I wanted to curl up in a little ball and just cry.

Torts- yet to be taken. Closed book. Intentional, Negligence, Defenses, Evidence (overview) should be horrible, hopefully doable.

Getting ready to move on Thurs/Fri/Sat. Hopefully. Money fell through and I've been forced to come up with $1200 in a short amount of time. Hopefully one of my family members/ family friends is able to help me out.

Wish me luck to make it through this week. I'm going to need it.

On another note, Rest In Peace to the victims in Connecticut. You will not be forgotten. Senseless horror. The law student in me cannot help but wonder who will be sued and for what. The families deserve some money, but I don't know where it will come from. I feel morbid wondering about it, but that is where my brain is at right now. Lots of love to all the families.

Studying= Student + Dying

I've been studying. A lot. I gave up trying to study in my loud as hell apartment. So I went home. Mom and my sister have been great helping me study, reading flash cards and letting me take over the kitchen table. (Literally take over).

Its going good. I feel like I should be doing more, learning something else but I don't know what. I'm focusing on Property and Contracts right now. Once Contracts is done my focus will shift to Civil Pro and Torts, or maybe once Property is done I'll do Contracts and Civ Pro... that is probably more likely.

Dolly dog and I have had an eventful day. We walked to the auto shop to get moms car (she got a flat so she took my car to work). Then I went to lunch with a sorority sister. I have since been studying. Outlining, tabbing, flash cards, memorizing.

I feel like I know it. But I've had that feeling before and been SO VERY wrong. Sigh.

I have to go back to DeKalb tomorrow for a Property review. Then I have my property test on Thursday at 1pm. I'll finish the test probably around 4:30 and then drive up to mom's to continue studying. It's just easier here. Less distraction, no screaming girls, no fire alarms. Its nice.

Mom is going to be home in 2 hours. I'd like to spend the evening with her not doing Property studying. Perhaps I can swing it. If I get back to the books.

I hope I know more than I feel like I know. Its like in my head I know what is going on. But there is a problem getting that info out in a timely manner. And I need to make my brain connect the dots faster- but I'm not sure how to do that. I'll just have to figure it out.

Thanks to the amazing Kappa Delta ladies who have been so supportive, especially Mo. And thanks to Mom and Katie for helping me, understanding, and well putting up with my madness. Hopefully this side of 5 years I'll be well off with an amazing job. :)